Everyday I Vow To...

So I've decided that in order to reach my goal of being a person that does more than just schoolwork, in order to be a person with a story, i need to start doing even little things every day so that eventually i can build up to greater and much larger things to change the world. Here's what I have so far:


-give at least 3 people a hug
-talk to someone i don't usually talk to
-spend at least an hour straight (not scattered) doing something besides homework or anything on the computer
-tell someone something about how i'm feeling that day. not hold everything inside all the time.
-ask someone who looks upset what's wrong and listen to them if they decide to tell me
-hug someone who looks upset when words don't work
-give a complement to at least one person...especially randomly
-read a couple of pages in a book that's not for homework
-read something inspirational/ watch a short video about something inspirational.
...as always, this list will hopefully be added onto.

Inspiration Blogs

So many of you might know, or you might not, that one of the biggest goals that I've had for practically my entire life is to be more creative. Recently I have found a few blogs that have become my sort of muse(s? can you make that plural? I've never heard it that way.)
Anyway, I've decided that I want to post their sites on my own blog because I want to spread their magnificence to others so that they can inspire others as they do me.



Number 1.
name: whichgoose
blog link: http://whichgoose.blogspot.com/
this girl is positively...what's a good word...phenominal? creative? incredible?
some mixture of all those and more.
I found her first on Etsy but then lost track of her and managed to find her again a few months later. And then I found out she had a blog and I followed her on there, and I am so glad I did. I look at all of the beautiful things she has created and all of the things she posts that she's done and I am inspired to do stuff for myself, create stuff, do more with my life. So thank you Ms. Whichgoose (a.k.a Emily)

Number 2.
name: goodthingscatered
blog link: http://goodthingscatered.blogspot.com/2010/01/new-year-new-recipes.html
so as many of you may know, I am a baker. I love it. It makes me happy. And I think I'm kind of addicted. (to clarify: bake food not drugs ok?)
I actually found this blog a long time ago when I was looking for a recipe for blueberry scones to bake with one of my best friends, Emily. The women who writes this blog has hundreds of recipes; the perfect combination of recipes with pictures to accompany them, and reviews at the end to make you absolutely sure that this is the food you want to create. As mentioned in one of my previous blogs: one of my new years resolutions is to not bake so much but to also cook so that everyone can eat some of the delicious stuff I make without getting all worried about calories and fat or vatefer

Number 3.
name: thedrifterandthegypsy
blog link: http://thedrifterandthegypsy.blogspot.com/2010/01/pretty-books.html
So I only recently found this blog and I am SO happy I did.
The person who wrote this blog posts the most beautiful pictures I have ever seen in my entire life.
She also posts different projects she's started herself and with others and even the rest of the world! I wish I had signed up with her I Heart project. It's this like notebook thing that is being sent all around the world pretty much in which everyone who receives it makes a collage and puts it in the book. So awesome! I want to do something like that some day. Anyways. If you read this blog, please look her up.

Number 4.
name: notebookdoodles
blog link: http://notebookdoodles.blogspot.com/
This blog is a site full of happy and inspirational pictures featuring quotes that have been masterfully put together by the person who writes this blog. I swear. I go on this blog, and even on the crappiest of days, it makes me smile. So thank you so much for making my day every day notbookdoodles. you are amazing.



PLEASE PLEASE LOOK UP ALL OF THESE PEOPLE EVEN IF YOU DON'T READ MY DESCRIPTIONS! you will understand when you see them. and you can thank me later:)

THESE! i want these.

Sale price: 22.450,- Kr.



i don't understand the price. what does it mean? if you do understand, please, comment and enlighten me. much obliged

~Lili

Things I Absolutely MUST Do In 2010

...and if i don't...just please help me make sure I do. Much obliged.

• start sewing. I'm planning on starting with some cute aprons because I already have the material, and then I'm going to make a pair of floury shorts for my friend Kelly and I.
• start a chapstick line with my friend Marissa in order to get money for....shopping. Yeah. we're gonna be the next teen business starters you see on Chanel One. Lord.
• start my garden in the back yard that I already have planned out in my head
• FINISH my room. It's gonna be perfect.
• start dressing in the way the styles and outfits that I've already created in my head
  

side note: gosh I have all these plans in my head! If only they would turn into a reality.

• start legit photography... ask my uncle where I can acquire a nice camera for cheap
• bike ride
• expand my baking to cooking so that people will actually eat my stuff without worrying about silly calories and shtuff
• llllllllllllllllllllll. that was Hazel's (my new kitty) doing. love her to pieces
• make a bunch of hair pieces
• get overalls, decorate my straw hat, learn how to embroider, embroider gloves... then use all of this to garden in my garden
• take a pottery class
• start being more creative. As always, I want to be more creative!
• stop being lazy and go to the park and have fun
• get my license
  
• get a gym membership...and then actually use it...more than once.
  
• become more patient with certain people
• find a place that I can drive to that's secret, all mine. an escape.

this list will be continued as I think of more things
I love you, and a very Merry New Year to all.
I can't believe we're entering a new decade!

Inspiration

In my many moments of procrastination, such as my writing at this very second, I like to think that I am really using my time wisely by sifting through the world wide web. In my long and arduous traveling of the Internet I search for things that inspire thought and wonder and creativity and action.
One result of my searches appears in one of my very first blog posts: the slam poetry performance by Anis Mosjani.
Here's another site that I have found courtesy of my fellow procrastinator, Kelsie Fierce.

http://photoholic.tumblr.com/

one of my favorite pictures from the cite is:



the caption under was:

“Never express yourself more clearly than you are able to think.”

—Niels Bohr

Mary Lee Lingeman -- My Grandma

exactly one year ago today, my grandmother passed away.
I can't believe it's already been that long.
I remember that for a long time, I had trouble saying death or die or dying or any variation of the word...which sucked because, at the time, I was reading a book in my religion class about death that called for tons of essays. I couldn't even write the word.

I can honestly say that there hasn't been one day that hasn't gone by that i haven't thought about my grandma.

The night it happened, I remember my mom got a phone call from my aunt saying that my grandma was in the hospital, and it was pretty serious; I asked my mom if i could go with her to see grandma, but she told me i should stay and study for my chem test. Instead, I fell asleep and didn't wake up until 5:00, panicked, because I realized that i hadn't even started studying.
I went to the kitchen and saw that my mom's purse was on the counter, and thought "Mom's back, so Grandma must be o.k," and continued with my early morning study routine.
At around 6:45, my dad woke up and summoned my brothers and me to the boys' room and said he had to talk to us. I remember thinking, "What if my dad's about to tell us Grandma's dead?" And then discarding that thought with, "Psh, Grandma's healthy and active. She just fainted, that's all, like last year. Besides, if that were true, my mom would be the one to tell us. Dad hates Grandma."

We gathered around the room, Eddie, Sam, my Dad, and me, and my Dad said, "Kids, last night, Grandma died." My mind went blank. What? no! My mom came into the room then and she was crying and everything was confirmed.
I didn't want to stay at home. I had to get out. I went to school to take my chem test that I wasn't prepared for in the slightest, and told my friends what happened. I remember wishing that my best friend would just hug me and say anything to make me feel better, but i could tell she just felt really awkward. So I couldn't stay at school. I called my dad, and when we got home, the boys were playing game cube. That just PISSED me off. I slammed the door and went to my room and didn't come out for hours.
I didn't go one day without crying for months.

The last time I saw her, i was at her house and she was in the back room cutting my grandpa's hair. At least I have a good final memory.

She was the best grandma anyone could ever ask for. She never forgot birthdays, though she had 8 kids, and 8 sons-and-daughters-in-law, and over 24 grand kids. She had a jar of candy that she always let you choose from. She made fudge every Christmas. She made fucking jam o.k.? How can you beat this.

I have so many memories that have my Grandma in them and I can't believe that I'll never have any more. Sometimes, I still forget that she's no longer here. But I like to think that she still watches over me. That she was there at my Confirmation where she was supposed to be my sponsor. That she's gonna be there at my Junior Ring Ceremony and my Graduation and all the other important events she would never miss.

I love you Grandma, and I could never ever forget you. You will always be in my heart and I will forever be your loving granddaughter.


~Lili

p.s. song of the day: Congratulations by Blue October. It's the song I listened to when she left.


about the picture: in case you didn't know: the heart is the one my grandma gave me, and the cross is from a retreat i went on. I only just stopped wearing it every day.

iHate

when people have a problem having to do with me
and tell everyone in the world about it....except me.
just tell me what's wrong! nothings gonna get better till we talk about it and realize what's going on. in fact, it will just get worse and worse and more problems will be adding up 'till soon you'll be irratated by the way someone, i don't know, scratches their head or something.
i'm more than happy to admit that I'm doing something wrong or acting weird if you face up and tell me about it.
gee dang!